By Kamran Nayeri, November 19, 2012
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Our Place Is Where We Are Loved by Jan Yatsko |
This essay is about cats, mostly feral or "strayed," that I came to know since I moved to my new home in Sebastopol, California, in August 2011. It has been hard for me to write about them for reasons that will become obvious to the reader. The essay will appear in three parts. This is part 1. It is dedicated to all domesticated animals that live their lives at the mercy of the master who we often call "owner" as if these animals are mere commodities as we once sanctioned human slavery by buying and selling human beings (and in some parts of the world, still do). I hope it will touch the reader's heart and mind as all other good writings in the literature on animal liberation have done for me. As Henry David Thoreau noted wisely, enslavement of other animals also enslave us. Without animal liberation there can be no human emancipation.
When I lived in Atenas, Costa Rica, I met wonderful individuals, mostly women, who operated FundaciĆ³n Ateniense de Ayuda a Animales Abandonados (Atenas Foundation for Helping Abandoned Animals) on volunteer basis. They conduct ongoing public education including by setting up a stand at the Friday's farmers market (La Feria) and teaching school children. They also provide free neutering and spaying of dogs and cats. Until a good home is found for abandoned dogs and cats, these volunteers offer their own homes as temporary shelter for these often sick and mistreated animals. This organization is registered in Costa Rica as a non-profit (Cedula Juridica #3-006-542026).
A friend, an artist
and Atenas resident, Jan Yatsko used her talents to create the painting "Our Place is Where We Are Loved" (see above) and donated it to the Atenas Foundation
for Helping Abandoned Animals. All of the proceeds from the sale of this painting
will go towards food, medicine and veterinary care. The painting features Canela (Cinnamon) an abandoned and sexually abused
female dog with a big loving heart. When the abandoned and orphaned kittens
were placed near her, she started to produce milk and took care of them
until they were adopted. Canela was also adopted and now the painting that
captured her story is looking for a good home.
The unframed painting 15" X 20" in an acrylic wash on professional
grade watercolor paper. Cost is $300 dollars + shipping within the
US. Interested people can contact Jan Yatsko for more details at janyatsko@ice.co.cr. Everyone is encourage to visit Jan's website at www.janyatsko.com.
Thank you.
Kamran Nayeri
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The Feral Cat Colony on Darby Road
Mooshi goes to Sebastopol
At
4:30 on August 20 a year ago, I got up from my makeshift bed on the floor of my
emptied out bedroom in Montclair, Oakland, put the laundry basket over Mooshi
who was still sleep in her bed, pushed a flattened cardboard book box under her
bed and used plenty of dock tape to secure the basket on it. I then put Mooshi in the back of the
Prius and drove an hour and half to Sebastopol, 70 miles northwest of Oakland,
California.
The
sun was rising when we arrived in our new home. I was certain that Mooshi would
like her new house that sits on two acres of land in the countryside 3 miles
from downtown Sebastopol, a town of about 8,000 people. But how quickly would
she adjust?
I
first met Mooshi in the parking lot of Ann Head Building complex, part of the
University of California at Berkeley, in spring of 2003. Anna Head Building is
located at the northeast corner of a large UCB parking lot (which is now turned
into a student dormitory). Mooshi’s
stunning beauty—a calico coat with vivid colors of longish hair and beautiful
large and intelligent green eyes that made her she look like some Norwegian
Forest cat—made me fall in love at the first sight. It became apparent very
soon that Mooshi was feral and lived under the building. I soon began providing her with water
and then food on regular basis every day of the year. A cautious cat, it took
us a while to get to know each other but eventually we became best
friends. Every morning Mooshi was
waiting for me to arrive at work and provide her breakfast. When she was not
there calling her name was enough for her showing up. Most days Mooshi would be
sitting on top of the forgotten balcony on the second floor just below my
office’s window to watch the parking lot as people were heading home.
Mooshi in her home in Sebastopol, 2012
I
learned from others that Mooshi was the sole survivor of a litter born across
the street sometimes in late 1999 or early 2000. I have no idea how Mooshi’s
mother and siblings perished. Perhaps luck was a factor but Mooshi’s
intelligent and caution certainly helped her survive. For example, in dry
winter days she spent the mornings sitting on top of the hood of newly parked
cars to keep warm. I could see her
getting off a car that was parked for a while and jump on top of the hood of a
car that recently arrived. She enjoyed watching people, cars and other animals
from a safe distance. And she still does. She was also very agile and a great
hunter. I called her Mooshi after seeing her one morning with the tail of a mouse
briefly hanging from her mouth. In Farsi, “moosh” is the word for mouse.
By
2006, I was looking for another job and had to take Mooshi home. So, I spent
months trying to catch her—after all this time I could not, and still cannot,
pick her up and hold her in my arms.
She just does not like it. My coworkers, their spouses, people from UCB
Animal Control office tried for months to help me catch Mooshi. Nothing worked. A woman from animal control with a kind
heart for animals gave me a net with a very long handle to catch Mooshi. The
idea was to place something tasty on top of the net and then pull it up to
catch her. It did not work. The husband of a coworker who was
suppose to be very good with animals tired to make Mooshi familiar with his
scent by leaving his dirty shirts near her food and water dishes. After a few
days, he tried to crawl over to Mooshi and grab her. It did not work.
Finally, the Animal Control Office lent me a raccoon trap. For this to
work I had to stop feeding Mooshi for as long as it takes for her to walk into
the trap for her food. It tool 10
days of not eating her food—something very hard for both of us. But on March 7,
2006 at about 3:30 p.m. Mooshi walked into the trap. A coworker with a SUV drove us to the veterinary office. They ran test for serious infections
but fortunately found her to be healthy except for infected teeth. They
extracted two infected fangs and some bad teeth and let me take her home. Poor
Mooshi was very groggy when I took her to the bathroom that became her room for
about a week and [laced her on the towels laid down on the floor of the
bathtub. After a week of regaining
her strength and coming out of the initial shook of finding herself in an
entirely new place she was well enough to move to the smaller bedroom of the
house. I began spending more time with her although she was mostly hiding under
the bed. At night, she tried a few
times to break through the glass of the window and jump out. After about six months, I let Mooshi go
out. When she found a hole under
my neighbor’s house she crawled in—looked like home to her. However, after a
few hours she came out and I was able to get her back into the house. After a few times, she was finally at
home in the sense that she would go out and come back in on her own accord.
This
experience made Mooshi to bond with me more than to where she lived. So, after
just three days in her new house on Darby Road she was feeling at home. In
fact, Mooshi was actually happier living on two acres of land well populated
with gophers! She spent the next
six months gopher hunting. The fact the she never had any success did not
matter—it was still a lot of fun and exercise.
Darby
Road as a neighborhood
I
settled in Sebastopol, California, after a five-year quest to live in Cuba and
when that seemed impossible in Costa Rica. There were different sets of reasons for each of these. But
a common factor was the suffering of domesticated animals prevalent in those
countries and elsewhere in Latin America (I have also seen it in Mexico and
Venezuela). Once in Trinidad, Cuba, I found a blind dog dying of
starvation/dehydration under the cocktail table I had sat by to enjoy live
music. In Atenas, Costa Rica,
where I wished to settle down dogs that are lucky to belong to someone are tied
to a post on a short metal chain 24 hours a day for almost all of their lives—they
are used as burglary alarm. In
Ensenada, Mexico, it was not uncommon to find dogs with open wounds or dead by
the side of the road, hit by a car.
I limit my observation to dog abuse as the Latin culture is a “dog
culture!”
Sebastopol,
a town of 8,000 people, seemed to offer some of the qualities of Vinales, Cuba,
and, Atenas, Costa Rica. I found a house with an open-space architecture and
two acres of land for an affordable price outside of town in a valley that is
made up of homes with acreage and apple orchards and vineyards.
The
house at the end of the Darby Road appealed to me because it is a quite place
facing a meadow engulfed by dense growth of oak and other evergreens that
surround a big creek; together they serve as a wildlife corridor.
Darby
Road slopes down at about 15 degrees from Burnside—a road that snakes around
the top of the hills—surrounded by rows of apple and oak trees, shrubs and
weeds, including blackberry bushes.
A deep creek runs parallel to it on the left of the road as one drives
down the hill, leading into the big creek. About 1000 feet from the big creek, Darby Road turns left to
become still narrower and much more private. This part of the road is legally privately held, although
people take their walks there or walk their dogs. There are only seven houses
on this section of the road. My
house is the last just before a locked gate that makes Darby Road a
cul-de-sac. There are homes on
either sides of Darby Road as its slopes down towards the big creek. Most are
on private side road. There is a huge apple orchard belonging to a middle-age
couple, the Valentios, who are small farmers. They operate machinery such as a
giant tractor and a big truck. But manual labor—like preparing the trees,
pruning, picking apples--and other more demanding work—are done by seasonal
workers of Mexican heritage during the spring and fall seasons. Apples are sold
for making juice. There is also a
small five-acre family owned pinot noir farm. A non-descript building opposite of the small vineyard that
is known as the “Apple Shack” is home to some half-a-dozen young male
Mexian-American farm workers.
There
is considerable number of wildlife such as coyotes, deer, wild turkeys,
quarrels foxes, rabbits, gophers, moles, rats and mice, weasels, garden and
gopher snakes, lizards, a couple of dozens of regional and migratory birds
(quail families live under the blackberry bushes), many garden and house insects,
and plenty of various grasses, shrubs, and trees that create a very lively
surrounding. My neighbors have
cats and dogs, chicken and ducks, and goats. There is also a rescued horse and
donkey. Neighbors talk about “a
bobcat” that lives in the woods surrounding the big creek that has taken their
chickens. There is also rumor of mountain lions in the area. But coyotes come
here and I once saw one walking briskly past the gate to the neighbor’s apple
orchard towards the big creek.
Some nights, I wake up from their howl as they are just outside of my
window.
The
feral cat colony
One
morning a few days after I arrived, I was driving to town when I noticed two
small orange cats running towards my car from the right hand side of the road.
This portion of Darby Road is surrounded by apple orchards with blackberry and
other bushes on both sides of the creek to the one side and blackberry bushes
that serve as a wall to hide a quite house on the other. It also serves as the
location for loading and shipping apples in late summer and early autumn.
Rusting disabled farm trucks and machinery, heaps of worn out tires and wasted
wood made it clear that it was also a dumping ground. The cats were coming from a location near a flat bed truck
that was half sunken into the soil and partially covered by blackberry bushes.
A rusting shell of an old truck stood 100 feet further some 20 feet away from
the road.
I
pulled the car to the shoulder and stopped. When I stepped out the cats came
running to me robbing their faces and sides against me. I immediately noticed
than one of the orange cats had a large open wound above her right eye. They both looked very small, very
thin. I thought they were kittens.
I quickly figured out that they are starving. They wanted food.
I
returned home and brought back several cans of cat food with me and a few
dishes and a fork. It took them no time to swallow whatever I served.
Meanwhile, I noticed that a black cat has also appeared, and in the distance, a
calico cat. The black cat came
closer and let me pat him. I had
to get more food.
Thus
began my relationship with the feral cat colony on Darby Road. The first couple of weeks the cats
devoured anything I gave them and licked dishes clean. They were very much undernourished and
both orange kitties appeared seriously sick. The orange kitty with the wound over her right eye was by
far the friendliest. She actually
wanted me to pat her as much as she wanted to eat her food. The other orange
kitty sounded as if she suffered from an upper-respiratory infection. She was also skittish but being so
starved she allowed met to touch her while she was eating. I was so busy with these two cats that
the black cat and calico cat simply ate their food in a distance.
Orange
Kitty Number Two
After
the immediate problem of severe malnutrition was alleviated as the cats began
to simply eat their food as opposed to swallow it as fast as they could, I
decided to take the orange kitty with the open wound to a veterinarian. I thought that a raccoon or a fox might
have bitten the cat and the wound was not healing due to microbial
infection. The idea occurred to me
as a raccoon and a fox did indeed appear at feeding times at the beginning. Apparently, some kind-hearted neighbors
threw food for the cats allowing other animals to eat them. The raccoon and the fox must have
learned that they can share in the cat food being left there never mind that it
was served during the day and by the road where people drove by. I was hoping a
regime of antibiotics might heal the cat’s wound and if the cat did not have a
serious transmittable disease, I could take her home. So, I borrowed a trap
from a neighbor, made an appointment (subject to being able to trap the cat)
with the nearest veterinary practice-- Analy Veterinary Hospital—and on a
Thursday morning placed a small amount of food on a plate deep inside the trap,
set the trap, and waited for the orange kitty with the wound to show up. She
usually came first. However, the second orange kitty that usually did not show
up early and sometimes at all showed up and walked directly into the trap so I
closed it manually.
We
registered the cat as the Orange Kitty Number One. The cat was very docile. Dr. Baldwin was able to examine her
without any difficulty. The tests
for feline leukemia and feline immunodeficiency virus (FIV) were negative. She
was given a slow-release antibiotic shot to treat her upper respiratory
infection and release to me to take home.
I also learned that she was female and spayed, probably between 9 to 11
years old—an old age for a feral cat. Almost all her teeth and half her tongue
were missing probably due to a blow to the head either by an accident (e.g. a
car hit her) or by someone kicking her in the head. I learned later that she was also almost deaf—whether she
lost her hearing due to the trauma to her head or she got into an accident
because she could not hear well will remain an unknown. The notion that someone could have
brutalized the cat is not so far fetched.
George, a male orange cat, apparently orange cats are often male, that
spent his last two and half years of his life being taken care of by my
housemate and I in Montclair, Oakland, carried a booby gun pellet in his body—an
X-Ray taken just before he died showed it. Apparently, a neighborhood kid target practiced using
George.
I
took the orange kitty home. I
named her Sayda, a woman’s name in Gillaki languae. I had prepared the larger bathroom and walking closet for
her.
The
next day, I easily trapped the other orange cat. My neighbor who came to help
feed the other cats was amazed at how trusting this sweet cat was. We signed
her in as Orange Kitty Number Two.
Dr.
Baldwin had no trouble examining her either. However, she almost immediately
suggested that the wound that did not heal was probably advanced skin
cancer. To examine her further,
she had to use anesthesia. I left
the cat with her and went to sit by the phone at home. A call came by
mid-day. Dr. Baldwin told me that
the cat was bleeding under anesthesia probably because she had eaten rodents
with rat poison. Rat poison is a
potent anticoagulant—it kills rodents by causing severe internal bleeding. She
said she would do her best to save her.
A little later she called to say that bleeding had stopped but lab
results have come in showing she is infected with FIV. She thought that
explained the wound. Because the wound was not operable and the cat seemed to
be in late stages of skin cancer and feline AIDS she recommended that I give
her permission to end her life while she was under anesthesia. Her suggestion was a rational choice—the
cat probably would not have lived much longer and would die a painful death.
She could also transmit the FIV to other cats. I fought back tears as I I give
her “my consent” while thinking whom am I to put someone who I just recently
met to death?
I
left her a message for my neighbor who had helped me in the morning about this
tragic outcome. When she came to comfort me I could not hold back my tears no
more. I lost a friend that I had not yet quite known. The little sweet cat had made a warm spot in my heart for
the rest of my life. All the pains of my decision to put down Nuppy, one of my
closest friends and perhaps my most important teacher, in 2008 returned to me.
My only consolation was that of the two sisters I was able to save one.
Sayda
Sayda
turned out to be a vocalizer. She
cried when she used the box, ate her food and she sometimes in the middle of
the night. That worried me. At the same time, she ate with gusto, a
good sign of her desire to live and get stronger. She also began to enjoy some other comforts of living at
home instead of under the blackberry bushes. Within a few days, she began sleeping in her doughnut shaped
bed.
About
a week after Sayda came into the house a friend who I had not seen for about
about two decades came for a weeklong visit from Iowa. I had prepared the loft for my
visitors. To make sure he could sleep well I spent a number of hours each night
sleeping with Sayda in the walk-in closet. This seemed to comfort Sayda as she
sometimes curled up in my armpit and fall sleep and sometimes slept just above
my head on the carpet. She also learned to enjoy being brushed—and she does
need it as her fur forms mats. Sayda’s acceptance of my companionship was
fostered by the small size of the closet and the bathroom. Each time I reached out to touch her
initial reaction was to recoil. But once she was touched she relaxed and
sometimes even purred softly.
Sayda in her walk-in closet on my bedding, October 2011
After
my friend left, I began to leave the bathroom door open so Sayda
can walk into the large living room full of light coming through large picture windows.
Sayda did come to the door but would not cross into the living room. After a
while, I brought her in my arms to the living room to sit by my on the sofa.
This was fine as long as I sat by her.
As soon as I moved to do something elsewhere in the house Sadya ran back
to the closet. She did not feel
safe in open spaces.
Meanwhile,
Mooshi was curious about this visitor (Moosh is curious and very
intelligent). Whenever she tried
to stick her head inside Sayda’s turf she was hissed at and chased away by
Sayda. As much as Sayda is docile towards humans she is aggressive towards
other cats. Of course, she is bluffing with her small body and bone structure. I still do not
understand how small cats sometimes bully large ones; female cats bully male
cats, etc.
After
a few weeks living in the walk-in closet and the bathroom, Sayda discovered the
loft. The shape of the loft
follows the A-frame structure of the house. The ceiling slopes on both sides.
On has to be careful not to hit one’s head against the downward sloping ceiling
when walking laterally. On each side where the ceiling become particularly low
wooden moveable walls encase spaces that can be used as storage. The front and
back of the loft face huge picture windows with beautiful view of the meadow and woodland on one side and the neighbor’s large garden on the other.
One
day, I could not find Sayda in her closet. As the bathroom door was always left
open I figured she must have gone somewhere. Sometimes, she would go to my
bedroom and hide behind or under the bed.
However, I could not find her anywhere on the main floor. So, I began
looking in the loft. I finally
found her hiding in a dark corner of the attic. From that day she made the loft
her turf. At night she ventured
downstairs to use her box, which was still in the master bathroom. Once I realized Sayda is going to stay
upstairs I took her box to the attic so she did not need to come downstairs to
use it.
Sayda
spent the next couple of months hiding behind and under the bed or in dark
corners of the attic. I was no longer able to touch her or brush her. She would runs away. So, she was putting up with me while in
the closet. There was nowhere to hide there.
One
night frustrated by Sayda’s behavior, I laid on my belly on the carpet facing
her under the bed and talked to her for about 10 minutes. I asked her why is she playing this
game. Are I not the same person who held her, fed her, brushed her? Why is she now acting as if I am a
threat to her? I told her that she should accord herself more comfort. Why
spent most her time day and night under the bed as opposed to elsewhere in the
loft? I then went downstairs to go to sleep for the night.
I
do not know what might account for it, but the next day I found Sayda sitting
on the carpet by the bed and not under it. She never went back to sleeping or hiding under the bed.
A
couple of month later I had a similar monologue with her this time telling her
that I have lost my patience with her not ever coming downstairs. There is sunshine there and she could
be in the company of Mooshi and Sunny (I will tell her story in Part 2) and me.
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Sayda on her Iranian rug cushion on the main floor of the house. spring of 2012 |
The
next day, Sayda came downstairs and sat on an Iranian rug cushion a couple of
feet away from my workstation.
Ever since Sayda comes downstairs every morning after her breakfast and
remains there catching the sun light as late as the mid-day. Sometimes she also comes down at night
to sit with the rest of us as I watch a movie or relax on the sofa listening to
jazz with Sunny on my chest or legs.
Sayda
has also ventured outside a few times.
However, it is clear she feel very unsafe because she is almost deft and
is constantly surprised by people and animals showing up in her field of vision blurred by cataract.
For
the first 8 months Sayda’s health seemed to vacillate between poor to somewhat
better. Her appetite was not great and seemed to vacillate. She had formed a large mat on her back
that obviously bothered her. She
seemed unwell and showed obsessive/compulsive behavior by licking fur off
behind both her back legs and by licking the carpet. She also exhibited behavior as if she was constipated or had
problem passing down her food. One
day all of the sudden she stopped eating. This went on for a few days. I got
worried.
One
morning when she was sunbathing downstairs, I put a laundry basket over her,
slipped a flattened book box under her and taped the basket over it secure. I
took her to the veterinary hospital. Dr.
Cloninger found no mass in Sayda’s intestines. But she did find her to suffer
from a blood infection common to feral cats. She gave her a strong shot of antibiotic and sent her home
with a two-week regiment of antibiotic. I put the pills in treat-like pill
pockets and Sayda eat them gladly.
Within
a few days she felt better except for the onset of diarrhea. I gave her probiotics for cats. After 10 days, I called Dr. Cloninger
and she agreed to stop the antibiotics.
Sayda’s appetite and behavior improved, She actually put on a little
weight—she is still very small.
She does not show obsessive/compulsive behavior and she is not sleeping
as much—although she does sleep a lot.
I figure this may be normal for a deft cat. Also, she has lived about 10 years as a feral cat—most
feral cats die within a few years. She is an old lady with disabilities and
trauma of a hard life that limit her abilities to enjoy the pleasures of
everyday life. Sayda still has nightmares and wakes up crying loud. Only when I
rush upstairs to talk to her does she calms down and perhaps fall sleep again.
All
the same, Sayda is now part of our household.
To
be continued: Part II: Lulu, Calico and Sunny